relationships

I was asked to make a post about Sam and I, so here it goes.

In two days Sam and I will have been dating for 2 months. He asked me out at the ICS fair on June 20, 2013.  He had this entire thing planned out, he was going to ask me out on the ferris wheel and it would have been romantic. Instead I had to leave early, and he ended up asking me in line for the ferris wheel. But I am so happy he asked me out in line rather then on the ride. 

Since then we have gone to town and walked around, gone bowling, and gone mini golfing.  Every time we go on a 'date' it's the greatest feeling. I like spending time with him. He makes me feel special, and important. We have just decided to go ice skating on Tuesday as a celebration of two months together. 

Sam and I honestly have the most random conversations, we talk about our cats, what color to paint our rooms (because we both happen to be re-doing them) we have very interesting conversations about food and how we can't believe we aren't fat due to how much we eat.We laugh a lot when we are together. We don't really do the whole PDA thing but I don't think we have to, you can just tell when we hang out how much we like spending time with each other and that's the best part of our relationship.

I like Sam and mine relationship, some may say that it's an odd match but I think we are perfect together and i cannot wait to spend many more months with him. I honestly can't wait and hope for homecoming when we can both dress up and take cute couple pictures, and yeah. I just really can't wait to see him. 

Here you go courious anon, here is a post about mine and Sam's relationship.

Reading

When i was little and lived in arizona i would sit in a closet,on my weekends, and read for 5 hours a day. Now its a fight for me to even read a book for school. But i did find an amazing book, mainly for girls, but  i want everyone to read it. Its a quick read, only 215 pages, and trust me, you won't be able to put it down once you start.

Here is a book talk. Hope you enjoy:) 

The book started off with a girl named Lainey and a girl named Leah. Leah picked Lainey, the quite girl with no friends and this made Lainey feel super important and she felt that if she didn't do something for Leah that she would be replaced. In Lainey's house there is a special closet where Lainey and her sister kept their dolls and stuffed animals. But Leah decided to have the closet be where her and Lainey played house. But in order to play house properly they had to practice, practice for when they had boyfriends. Lainey let this go on for almost 3 years. She let herself be mentally abused by her " best friend". But after a while Leah and Lainey stopped talking, they stopped being friends.
But Leah couldn't allow that. She would constantly bring up past memories taunting Lainey saying things like " I know you liked it", "you knew what was happening"and "you wanted it" but Lainey didn't want it. Lainey started going to parties and getting drunk with her new friends, Jess and Web. But Leah would always pop up at these parties and pick on Leah as if they were little kids.
After Leah and Lainey stopped talking Leah basically went on a downward spiral soon to end in death. She drank she smoked she was in an abusive relationship, she was a ticking time bomb waiting to explode. One night, Web was hosting the final party of the year and Leah found Lainey. Lainey questions about Leah's life were finally answered.
Leah was being sexually abused by a family friend. In return she sexually abused Lainey. It was a spiral downwards. But the two girls had a secret they promised never to tell. But that night. Leah told everyone, she told them about the special closet about everything her and Lainey did to each other. And then Leah left in a drunken fit, but Lainey wanted to say one last thing to Leah, so she folowed her.But it was four in the morning and it was an unfamiliar road. But both girls are drunk, and driving 70 miles an hours down a curvy road. Thay take the first turn carefully, but Leah doesn't make the second turn. She drives straight off the road. And that dear friends is where i end and wait for to to read the book to figure out for yourselves what happens.

Sleepovers

When we were little sleepovers were such a big deal. You had to call your friends parent like four day before, you made up a list of things to do like:

• do each others nails
• play games
• watch a movie

Your friend would get dropped off at 6 and you would have pizza and soda. Then you would set up all your sleepover stuff. It was always so much fun and no matter how hard you both tried to stay up you always feel asleep at 12.

But now, sleepovers are planned last minute, you put on your shorts and tank top, grab a pillow and a blanket and you run over to your friends house. Instead of playing games and painting each others nails all you do is text and be on the computer. Cell phones are more important then face to face conversation.

Lately my friends and I have been trying this thing called "The Phone Bucket" you put your ohone in the bucket (pretty explanitory) but the trick is you cannot touch your phone untill moring.  The first time we tried this it worked out alot better. No one touched their phone until 10 'o' clock the next moring. This time. We weren't able to make it that far.

We were having a  lot of  fun playing stupid games and trying to twerk. but now, three of u are playing a group game while you lay with your back facing us on your cell phone. On instagram and facebook and everything besdies talking to us.

The first night you were fine with all of this, we came up with the rule that first person to touch the cell phone got ice cubes down her shirt. You laughed, we all laughed at this. It was brilliant right? This time, once again not so much. You basically told us that you don't care what we think you are just going to ingore us until we all fall asleep.

I get that talking to your boyfriend is way more fun then hanging out with your friends. But I would like to talk, its what I do I love having big, stupid conversations about anything. Sorry but I miss the old sleepovers, the ones that were fun.

Jesus Camp

I have just spent the last week of my life at "jesus camp" and let me tell you one thing, it has changed my life for the better. I went into the week hating everyone and everything that had to do with God because I couldn't understand why he was putting me through such pain and suffering. I thought of myself as a christan. i would pray when necessary and  go to church. so i couldn't wrap my head around why he was doing this to me. the very first thing the speaker, Cory, said was " God has a plan for me, and his plan is good" and i honestly don't think I have ever felt so relieved in my enitre life.

Finally all my questions would be answered. In life we will forever have more question then answers. God tests us to make sure we don't take the easy way out because we feel a pressure to perform for him. when in relaity, you CANNOT preform enough for him. All we need is a relationship with him, we need salvation. We have to allow him to change our lives everyday. God is a God of transformation not destination. He is forever working in us to make us better.When we allow him to work in us and change us we become a "mirror" of his glory in which we need to share with those who have not seen his glory. We can change the world with his endless glory.

We talked a lot about love, and how it has lost all meaning to say "i love you". We love pizza and cats and actors. Love is tied to feelings when it should be an action. An action to prove that you want to stay with that person for as long as possible. God loves us no matter what we do, his love is never ending and you can never use all of his love up. We sometimes try to hide pieces of ourselves from God but that doesn't work because he sees all of us and still loves us and wants to be in our lives. He is our      "something more."We need to face all the hurt in our lives and put it behind us and move on with our lives.

God keeps his promises. He created man in his image and in the beginning before sin entered the world. Adam and Eve walked with God in a garden. They could do whatver they wanted but eat from one tree. One day the devil came and spoke to Eve and created doubt in her mind about God's love so she and Adam ate from the tree and that was when sin entered the world and made us sperate from God. God wants us to be him in this world. We must carry him with us everywhere we go and project his love to others. There are people who have never heard of Jesus or of Gods' love. In our lives God will call us to do things we don't want to do but we do them anyway and we will have results that were never expected.

In this life we lack two things:
Courage and Compassion.
We lack courage because we can see that one person who always sits alone or is made fun of but we don't have the courage to do something about it. We could walk right up to then and show them that someone out there cares but we are too obessed with popularityand what others would think that we don't. We lack compassion because we don't care about anyone but ourselves. We would rather make sure that we are popular then care about those who aren't because as long as we are "okay" everyone else is "okay." Personally I lack courage, i'm all talk I say how I will change, and walk over and talk and sit next to that person eating all alone when in reality I don't. I say I will but there is no follow through.

God puts us through those test I was talking about us to teach us so that when it happenes to another human being we can help them through it, we can tell them that yes, it's painful and hard and it won't be easy but it will get better. I know, cliche right? But it does get better. God has a plan for me, and his plan is good.